An article I read posed the question…. “what is the goal of the writing?”
“I write to take the shackles off my feet so I can DANCE.”
On the real, this is my passage to healing. Mentally, emotionally, and spiritually it’s all a part of a heavenly plan. I write out loud cause it keeps me from engaging in my favorite pastime…. overthinking.
God knows I’ve got to get this Schtuff out of my head somehow, then What?!! 🤨 So, my dominant intention is to possibly help someone embrace their “bubbling mass of idiosyncrasies,” and live well on their terms.
It’s specifically these “someones” I write to help feel a little less emotionally disorganized with a desire to bless and encourage those “who are tired.” Let’s begin again anew, choose to live free and brave and adopt a #nuAttitude
A Mass of Generational Bullsh*T
I was hesitant to include the following passage in this piece, but spirit compels me to offer a lil more context. Frankly, many times in my life I’ve felt lost and been out-of-control.
Wreckless with some serious baggage, I often did myself a disservice and have felt its effects across my life in a BIG way.
Consequently, my frame of mind and emotional state used to be and at times still is influenced by a tough family relationship (i.e. mother-daughter). This bond has been fraught with conflict and avoidance.
There are some deep wounds. You see, thoughts, beliefs, and actions have been colored by this relationship more than I’d care to admit, even now. Though I continue to learn through this relationship, when I judge it, I still have to ask myself the question “what still needs healing in me?” (thank you Michel Roy👊🏽!!)
The answer most definitely becomes better boundaries, emotional freedom, and maturity. I can get behind a WooHoo on that!🙌
Nevertheless, it’s because of the emotional mess, it seems I’ve been on this journey of 10,000 steps to bring focus to rest upon and encourage revolt and intelligence.
Unhealed Emotions will Manufacture Chaos
Yessiree, in my addiction and co-dependency, I stayed way past its expiration date and made some pretty poor choices. Opting for comfort, laziness, and a perceived need to escape, I let feelings of shame and guilt stunt my growth in some aspects and keep me from living emotionally self-sufficient.
I now see every life experience along this journey emphasizes the idea – one must choose to be all-in and not half-ass with this enduring learning process.
“life is business one must learn to run well” NdrB.
To define emotions – “a natural instinctive state of mind deriving from one’s circumstances, mood, or relationships with others,” so feeling a lil emotionally worn-out, I believe is an experience we all face. Whether we choose to acknowledge it or not.
The evergreen lesson I continue to ingest is some relationships are instigators and harbingers of change as well as agitators and aggravators to move us out of the comfort and co-dependency we so dearly cling to sometimes.
Therefore, How Do You Mend a Broken Heart?
Acknowledgment. The benefit of this kind of exercise helps to let feelings and emotions be what they are…. visitors with information.
So, it’s the “her” still wanting to be addicted and a victim that I write to acknowledge, accept, heal, and let go of attachments with grace. Writing allows life to be visible to understand and make some sense of experiences, past, present, and future to be.
I’m now willing to address and gain more awareness and more understanding. I write to shine a light on the forgotten girl inside and on the outer addict.
All This Reflection Calls For Being Vulnerable
Openness hasn’t always been an easy feat. Life scars of varying intensities (some more so, than others) I’ve learned can either hinder or propel us forward.
That’s okay because in doing so, discovery will happen and more layers will peel away. Subsequently, a choice is made to move beyond comfort into allowing questions and answers to arise.
With faith, hope, willingness, and a renewed perspective, feelings and emotions help us dare to make better choices emotionally, embrace and manage change, and commence to #choosejoyandlivewell.
**Meet me on the dance floor of life. Take the “shackles off your feet and come dance with me!**
Stay Golden
💃afm/NdrB
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