Serving Time…Emancipation Road
“Sometimes your greatest testimony is that you went through the fires of life and did not come out smelling like smoke.” – Tony Warrick
Love, an addiction to suffering.
Gotcha!!
Ahhh Life! you probably thought this was all about relationships and you are right! It’s all about that. A mighty powerful influence upon a person’s identity and viewpoints if you are not vigilant. I would like to paint this as flowers and babies smiling, but the truth sometimes is that… “Life will kick and bite depending on perspective and especially if external experiences define our identity.”
Raindrops Keep Falling on My Head
I have finally grasped that a willingness to unlearn and forgive is key to healing self. This becoming whole, healing shit, and working at being emotionally independent is no easy task. Nevertheless, relationship(s) is the car we ride into living fully. The conclusion of a year-long, very karmic learning lesson ended recently.
I.N.T.U.I.T.I.O.N.
Listen here: Neva ignore this B*tch!! The light bulbs consistently came on, and the red flags continuously unfurled. Still, I ignored my better (higher) mind. It was like the slap in the movie “Moonstruck,” I needed to snap out of it. I had an inkling of the purpose and importance of the relationship, but the magnitude of influence on my sense of personal power, self-esteem, and addiction to suffering was an unknown quantity.
Illusions, Fantasies, and Projections
I saw myself and was brought face to face with how I was showing up in my personal relationships…powerless and inauthentic. I hadn’t accepted who I have been and still saw love as suffering, a battle manufactured in the present because of unbelief. Very subtly and not-so-subtly, I saw I was still perpetuating victimhood even as someone more aware. I had no choice but to ride this train or see this station again.
Revisiting a Life Course
While I have learned to welcome lessons as lessons, I did not feel a do-over on a lesson that took 19 years to complete. I was taking the final exam and it was clutch time. Confronted with me, I had to release the past, forgive everyone (myself included), and choose to love. I dove in and leaned into something bigger than me. I finally spoke my truth with voice shaking, claimed my own power, and cut the energetic cords on self-inflicted toxicity.
Me now with that Smile like the 12-year-old girl in the photo.
I saw this the other day and it says succinctly what I desire…“Authentic, Aligned, and Content.”
I can soooo get with it! How about you?
Cheers!
Cosmic Love, Stay Golden 💃afm/NdrB
No Schtups!!!
I admit it!! I was scrolling and fell into the rabbit hole of Reels!! Consequently, I came across a reel titled “No Fuxs.” Now mind you, any other time I would laugh and find the humor, but on this occasion, I had a different thought.
At one time in my life, I was a strong advocate and supporter of the “no fuk school of thought.” I would say I hold a graduate degree. Nevertheless, I find myself now taking issue with this kind of thinking. I would like to offer this new thought if you happen to be a part of this group or not.
Here is my new idea…
If we are giving no motherf*king fuxs about anything, we must include ourselves in the “no f*k” equation. This means we are giving “no fuxs” about ourselves.
Most importantly, I have come to understand that when we do not give a “fuk,” we have decided not to feel, love, learn, or grow as a person and human. This decision translates to not live in our authentic truth. The reality of the matter is … you must feel to live.
We do ourselves a disservice
What happens as a result of this disservice? We deplete precious energy and focus when we give a f*k about somebody else’s whack a** sh*t. That’s time and energy we could have been giving a f*k about our self. Think about that the next time you are giving “no fuxs” away!!!
In truth, Life does not happen in a vacuum, so you have to give a “fuk” about something and make sure you are one of those choices! I ask you to please sit with that in a moment of devotion to yourself!
In short
AS one lover to another, may I suggest…we practice responsibility and choose our “no fuxs” wisely!!! Value yourself, time, and energy. Cheers!!
daquote…
“it’s your road and yours alone. others may walk it with you but no one can walk it for you – Rumi”
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Would I lie to ya! Nah! 💜
Stay Golden💃🏽afm/NdrB!
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dr. Baumb’z $.02 cents…Here come da General🌟
Rise Up!☝🏽
“Limitations Inspire Innovations.” Mary Jo
It may seem we’ve been outmanned and out planned by external circumstances but remember this lovey…
We always Got the Power of Choice.
Soooo, “Buy the ticket, take the ride.” Hunter S. Thompson
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Would I lie to ya! Nah!💜
Stay Golden💃🏽afm/NdrB
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dr. Baumb’z $.02 cents…Seriously?!!😲Play!
Pitty Pat Pitty Pat Pitty Pitty Paaaaaaaat!
Thaquote…
“Life has become immeasurably better since I have been forced to stop taking it seriously.” – Hunter S. Thompson
Find the love, joy, and happiness in life; besides learning, this is our job.
Soooo, reconnect with the childlike, wonder-filled, excited side in all our adulting and open the heart, it’s in there💛
🌟✨✨✨💫 Would I lie to ya! Nah!💜
Stay Golden💃🏽afm/NdrB
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Houston we got a problem🆘
dr. Baumb’z $.02 cents… Friday Feels…Stuckness😳
This feeling requires us to take a look at our stuff, our own bullshit; the stories we tell ourselves and the actions we take for comfort. In other words, we need to look so we may knowingly and lovingly shape our world and experiences💥
✨✨✨💫Would I lie to ya! Nah!💜
Stay Golden💃🏽afm/NdrB
#drBaumbz2cent #laughterismedicine #balance #lessonsandblessons #vibehigh #alignwithsource #trustyourself #growthwarrior #inspirationandmotivation #encourager #healer #lightworker #divinewisdomguides #BeEncouragedFam #doinitright #possibilitiesingrowth #successbydesign #drBzToolz
***d’theme music: XRay Vision/Slynk (YouTube Audio Library)
May the Force be with You👊🏽
Quote: “Do or Do not. There is no try.” Yoda
Experience is one of our best teachers. In a moment of reflection, you will look back and be amazed how many challenges you’ve surpassed.
So, do it, do it, do it. Do it till you’re satisfied!🤙🏽
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Would I lie to ya! Nah!💜
Stay Golden💃🏽afm/NdrB
#drBaumbz2cent #laughterismedicine #balance #lessonsandblessons #vibehigh #alignwithsource #trustyourself #growthwarrior #inspirationandmotivation #encourager #healer #lightworker #divinewisdomguides #BeEncouragedFam #doinitright #possibilitiesingrowth #successbydesign #drBzToolz
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Learning to Respect My Spark, I Never Thought I Would😱👀
An article I read posed the question…. “what is the goal of the writing?”
“I write to take the shackles off my feet so I can DANCE.”
On the real, this is my passage to healing. Mentally, emotionally, and spiritually it’s all a part of a heavenly plan. I write out loud cause it keeps me from engaging in my favorite pastime…. overthinking.
God knows I’ve got to get this Schtuff out of my head somehow, then What?!! 🤨 So, my dominant intention is to possibly help someone embrace their “bubbling mass of idiosyncrasies,” and live well on their terms.
It’s specifically these “someones” I write to help feel a little less emotionally disorganized with a desire to bless and encourage those “who are tired.” Let’s begin again anew, choose to live free and brave and adopt a #nuAttitude
A Mass of Generational Bullsh*T
I was hesitant to include the following passage in this piece, but spirit compels me to offer a lil more context. Frankly, many times in my life I’ve felt lost and been out-of-control.
Wreckless with some serious baggage, I often did myself a disservice and have felt its effects across my life in a BIG way.
Consequently, my frame of mind and emotional state used to be and at times still is influenced by a tough family relationship (i.e. mother-daughter). This bond has been fraught with conflict and avoidance.
There are some deep wounds. You see, thoughts, beliefs, and actions have been colored by this relationship more than I’d care to admit, even now. Though I continue to learn through this relationship, when I judge it, I still have to ask myself the question “what still needs healing in me?” (thank you Michel Roy👊🏽!!)
The answer most definitely becomes better boundaries, emotional freedom, and maturity. I can get behind a WooHoo on that!🙌
Nevertheless, it’s because of the emotional mess, it seems I’ve been on this journey of 10,000 steps to bring focus to rest upon and encourage revolt and intelligence.
Unhealed Emotions will Manufacture Chaos
Yessiree, in my addiction and co-dependency, I stayed way past its expiration date and made some pretty poor choices. Opting for comfort, laziness, and a perceived need to escape, I let feelings of shame and guilt stunt my growth in some aspects and keep me from living emotionally self-sufficient.
I now see every life experience along this journey emphasizes the idea – one must choose to be all-in and not half-ass with this enduring learning process.
“life is business one must learn to run well” NdrB.
To define emotions – “a natural instinctive state of mind deriving from one’s circumstances, mood, or relationships with others,” so feeling a lil emotionally worn-out, I believe is an experience we all face. Whether we choose to acknowledge it or not.
The evergreen lesson I continue to ingest is some relationships are instigators and harbingers of change as well as agitators and aggravators to move us out of the comfort and co-dependency we so dearly cling to sometimes.
Therefore, How Do You Mend a Broken Heart?
Acknowledgment. The benefit of this kind of exercise helps to let feelings and emotions be what they are…. visitors with information.
So, it’s the “her” still wanting to be addicted and a victim that I write to acknowledge, accept, heal, and let go of attachments with grace. Writing allows life to be visible to understand and make some sense of experiences, past, present, and future to be.
I’m now willing to address and gain more awareness and more understanding. I write to shine a light on the forgotten girl inside and on the outer addict.
All This Reflection Calls For Being Vulnerable
Openness hasn’t always been an easy feat. Life scars of varying intensities (some more so, than others) I’ve learned can either hinder or propel us forward.
That’s okay because in doing so, discovery will happen and more layers will peel away. Subsequently, a choice is made to move beyond comfort into allowing questions and answers to arise.
With faith, hope, willingness, and a renewed perspective, feelings and emotions help us dare to make better choices emotionally, embrace and manage change, and commence to #choosejoyandlivewell.
**Meet me on the dance floor of life. Take the “shackles off your feet and come dance with me!**
Stay Golden
💃afm/NdrB
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#2 Photo by Aline de Nadai on Unsplash
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songVibe: Just Like You/Keisha Cole
“Healing is not linear.” – Victor LaValle
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Let’s talk about God, Baby!
In these rather trying times, we have seen a blatant disregard for our fellows. This is a crying shame!
You see the truth of the matter is there is no – you vs. me. No separation, no division. We are “1” with everything under heaven.
So, let’s talk about God in this moment.
My question….
Why do we debate whether or not there is a God?
Trust me this is not a theoretical discourse of the God concept. I’m not an alarmist or sensationalist (ihatethatsh*t).
On the contrary, this is one gal’s take on God, Jesus and being right in the world!
Jesus is the Manifestation of God’s Cool
A Kirk Franklin song lyric says it just right for me…
“My desire is to please you,
To be more and more like you Jesus,
Each and every day,
I lift my hands and say,
I want to be more like God — “My Desire.”
Within each and every one of us is what I will call God. I will further assert we all possess the “fruits of the spirit – love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Against such things, there is no law.” Galatians 5:22–23 (NIV).
Personal Growth & God
I read a piece on the topic of being a believer in God and Jesus. This topic resonated deeply with me, you see, I wanna be more like Jesus.
The question…. “So, am I a Christian?”
Here are my thoughts on this…. Yes, I am and use the term lightly.
I am a student and follower of many people who are/were a living example of the truth.
Like Jesus, who was Cool and the personification of the “fruits,” completely unadulterated in these assets. I desire to show less of me and more of God’s manifestation through me and live in truth.
Truth is grounded in love, peace, simplicity, and humility. These qualities represent the character of God and are something we all would want to cultivate, regardless of what we label ourselves.
Love is Truth, Period.
So, I ask … why not say yes to higher vibrations and authenticity in love, grace, joy, respect, tolerance, and kindness. Let’s take advantage of God present in the details of life.
We always have opportunities to cultivate the “fruits” of spirit present daily. Make a choice to see “we are one with everything under heaven.” This is the beauty of living right in the world.
My Acronym….
G: REAT
O: PPORTUNITIES
D: AILY
songVibe: Love in Need of Love Today/Stevie Wonder
Inspire Encourage Motivate
Stay Golden
💃afm/NdrB
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Persist
A relentless frustration with life will lead to anger!
Emotions such as this one is an invaluable feedback tool for learning and growth.
Simply stated, it’s motivation to take action.
May I suggest…
STOP, wait a minute…
remember, powerless, you are not!
A quik thought for a NuAttitude
Inspire Encourage Motivate
Stay Golden
💃afm/NdrB
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