From distraction to freedom
I know difficult relationship stuff, fully and intimately. So, with a thoughtful eye, I re-visit judgements on my maternal association.
I love her very much and moments of anxiety about our relationship have saddened me. The relationship has been a trying one with some interesting dynamics.
Nevertheless, I eventually became sufficiently “worn-out from carrying the weight of unforgiveness, I choose to drop it.”
Our bond has gotten better since returning home, I cuss and pray a lot! I’ve written on these feelings before; however, my lens at the time of that writing was still tainted.
Evergreen life lessons have been learned in our relationship journeys. I now attempt to understand not just our relationship better but all my relationships better.
Here I am a woman of a certain age
From a healthier view, I realize “she & I” are one (in our generational family dysfunction). Two sides of the same coin…. shadow and light.
We share the same inner A**hat, the parts cracked, scared, hurting, defensive and too proud. The humor…this story is nothing novel.
Dorothy, I came home!
I once read an article where a woman reflected on her difficult mother/daughter relationship and her conflicted feelings.
My question after reading …. how do I reconcile a conflict of so many feelings?
My answer… right here in this space is how I heal and grow. Personal and emotional growth lies on the other side of willingness with admission and acceptance that self-love begins here. As I heal, so does she. We are One.
Monster & Magnificence, this is ME.
**songVibe: This Is Me/The Greatest Showman Soundtrack
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